It’s okay to give yourself an allowance of weird excuses sometimes. Because life is weird and when you embrace that truth, you can better understand how to say “yes” or “no” for your own reasons rather than for other people’s reasons. Plus, after a choice is made the reason oftentimes become irrelevant. It’s what you did that counts.
Sometimes I have to actually tell myself that I don’t need to be afraid to be wrong or uncomfortable or a little lost. A friend asked me recently if I was setting back into the rhythms of NYC. The response was meant humorously but turned out to be quite articulate:
We try to be strong and unmovable so we can get through the difficult days. But resistance is what causes the angst. Transitioning back to NYC has not been easy. Partly because I had blissfully forgot the complex tangle of satisfaction and frustration that encompasses working in the South Bronx.